Journal 2.

"I'm disgusted, don't even look at me right now!" He screamed at his reflection in the tiny crooked mirror sightly above the bathroom sink.
"Go away, I can't take you; I can't take anything anymore!" He hollered once again, hoping that he himself would disappear.
Bob is a struggling college freshman, lost around the huge campus of the famous "Farmer's College" In the striving melting pot of New York City. His feelings about this new life outside of the old grade school routine are clearly shown by his moping around the school.
"Man, what's wrong with that dude? He's like a robot or something," He'd hear a couple of girls say, but that wasn't even the worst of it.
"What's wrong with that guy? He's definitely one of them, "emos" that hang around the skater parks. I mean come on, look at him, check out that long face, he's probably gonna go home and be cuttin' himself after precalc!" He heard others usually snicker while walking past, as if he couldn't hear.
Though he visibly hated their comments, he couldn't blame them. He knew about the faces he put on, the frown, eyebrows glewed down to the bridge of his nose. He knew he wasn't normal, well, at least in the eyes of everyone else.

List of things 2.

1.Things going through my mind

- What the heck did I do wrong on that math test, how'd I do so bad?

- How can I learn from my mistakes

- Will these entries be very benificial towards my grade later on though their a bit late?

2. Things making me angry

- Looking into my bag and seeing my horrible score

- How no matter how hard I try I can't seem to grasp what we're learning in computer science

3. Things I want to do

- Stop making excuses, though they are valid, and do my absolute best to prove to Mr. Froner, Ms. DeFeo, and myself that I CAN strive in a college enviornment

- Go home, study, and play my xbox with my cousin

4. Things I NEED to do

- Put myself first

- Stop procrastinating

- Stop being lazy because I HAVE potential, but I just don't use it.

5. What I'm thinking

- How good it's going to feel once I have all my work turned in.

- I'm glad that my globalization and human rights work is caught up at least

- Why am I listening to this song on repeat? I didn't put it on repeat!

6. What I'm going to do after school

- Go home and get settled in, maybe eat.

- Shower, so I don't keep smelling the stench of failure.

- Do homework/ study

7. How I'm going to prove myself

- Start getting to school earlier, starting tomorrow for study group.

- No matter what, do all, and I mean ALL, of my work.

- though it may be valid, not make anymore excuses.

8. What I'm hoping to have completed by tonight

- My college essay so that I won't look foolish with a draft being presented.

- All of my homework, mostly make up

- My bag completely cleaned out and organized

9. What's confusing me

- "funny situations" with some girls

-How I did so bad on my test

- What to do next.

10. Things that are saving me from breaking

- my cousin, because he's a really supportave guy, though he may not know it

- My girlfriend, I can't really say enough

- My mom, because I can't disappoint her; disappointing her would be worse than disappointing myself... seriously.

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Journal 1.

Free Write:
I wish I weren't here right now, I can't stand even thinking about math because of my extremely shocking and disappointing test score on the math midterm. I felt confident coming into the test that thursday and I really believed that I knew most of the material included on that test, which made the results even more painful to even glance at. I don't know, even though Mr. Liao drops the lowest exam score, I'm still pretty banged up about it, which I think doesn't make sense. I guess it's just more of a pride thing than anything right now, but oh well, maybe I needed this as an indication that I need to study even harder.

15 things

1. Things that make me angry
- When there's no food in my refrigerator when I come home from school.
2. Things I wish were never said
- I wish that I never told me my that I didn't love her after she wouldn't give me an Oreo when I was 8.
3. Things that make me afraid
- Sleeping in complete darkness.
4. Things to die for
- My family
5. Things that changed me
- High school
6. Things that excite me
- getting new clothes
7. Things that make me happy
- watching T.V before I go to bed.
8. Things that I like
- Playing my XBOX 360
9. Things that are confusing
- Meanings of things that people say.
10. Things that get me ging when I don't feel well
- Playing basketball
11. Things that calm me down
- Listening to music
12. Things that make me sad
- Doing bad on tests
13. Things that are weird
- Meeting new people
14. Things that get old
- Playing the same game
15. Things that make me laugh
- Seeing people do dangerous things.